The phrase you don't know what you have until it's gone has never rung more true. I have told you that my bff is in Gambia, Africa. She has been there for about three weeks. When she lived here we saw each other maybe once a week, a little less than that when we got really busy with our lives, but she was always a short message away. Now I find that I have so many things that I want to tell someone, of course her, and she isn't there to tell. Also, I want to know what she is doing! I have been getting e-mail updates from her parents and let me say when I get those e-mails it is like Christmas! The second I get the e-mail I share her adventures with anyone in ear shot! Sorry for those strangers that hear about my endless stories of some random person you have never know. :)
I think about what she could be doing and then I find myself wanting to know what could be in store for me. I have had the restless, there's got to be something more in this life feeling before. But haven't had it for awhile. Until now, when I know, despite not hearing everyday, she is having adventures everyday! I know she is learning, serving, and sacrificing things I take for granted everyday. I have always wanted to be like her, her determination, her flexibility, and her independence. Now I want to have a heart like her. I want to serve. I want to make a difference. I don't want the repetition of doing the same thing everyday and maybe once in a while feel like it means something. However, on the flip side of that, I freak out when there is change. :) Complicated I know. The worst part is the one person who would actually get all of this rambling, is across the ocean right now. :)
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